Pinterest fail!

Our first pinterest fail! We dipped cotton balls in flour and water and baked them. They were supposed to turn out crunchy and be fun to smash but that didn’t really happen. Bryke wasn’t really a fan of getting messy but Grandpa showed him that messy is fun! Thank you pinterest for all the fun ideas-they help to keep the cabin fever at bay!

the one with Bryke and my dad is priceless-Grandpa sure loves his little B man!

Keegan is 2 months!

-24.75 inches
-12 lbs 14 oz
-15.75 head (I can't remember the percentiles darn it! but he is healthy so we couldn't ask for much more!)
-I swear he still sleeps all day! And still does pretty great at night most nights (up maybe once or twice)

-smiles with his whole face, you don’t even need his mouth to let you know he is smiling his cheeks tell you everything

-still looks like he might be a redhead with blue eyes

-super snuggly

-3 month clothes almost don’t fit

We love you Keegster that’s all there is to it! Please keep on being the best baby ever :)

Forever Grateful

Saturday was one of the worst days of my life and I mean that without a hint of exaggeration. It’s tough to even write about let alone put on a public blog but this happened it and I want to remember it so that it never ever happens again.

Jill was downstairs and had fallen asleep with Keegan. She got up and propped him up on the recliner and then came upstairs to chat with us. I went down to check on him and he was sound asleep so I ran back upstairs to help Bryke with something. I wasn’t up there for very long at all maybe 5 minutes when Jill heard her dog Brax barking. She ran down there and I got up too thinking I probably shouldn’t leave Keegan down there with the dog. When I was at the top of the stairs getting ready to go down Jill started screaming my name. When I got down there she had Keegan in her arms and he didn’t look good at all. I grabbed him and was cradling him when Jill told me that when she got down there Keegan had moved and his face was wedged in between the back and the arm of the recliner. His face was blue but he was still breathing and started to respond and move when she picked him up and started talking to him.

As she was telling me all this I was a mess, crying and just holding Keegan to my chest and telling him how sorry I was. I honestly felt like the world’s worst mother ever. My heart is breaking all over again just writing this and it’s hard to keep the tears back because it’s the thoughts that come if Brax wouldn’t have barked there is a very real possibility that we wouldn’t have Keegan with us anymore.

After talking for a minute with my mom I decided to take Keegan to the ER to make sure he was alright. On the way there he wasn’t really responsive and I couldn’t wake him up. That was the scariest 10 minutes of my life. I don’t think I have ever prayed so hard or sincerely in my life. I just wanted my baby to be ok!

Jill came with me and when we got there they were asking me all these questions and I just couldn’t stop crying or really even think straight. Jill was an angel and answered a lot of the questions and then gave one of the sweetest prayers that I have ever heard in my life. It was such a comfort and the exact words that needed to be said at the time. I know Heavenly Father was there with us and had a part in that prayer.

They were pretty worried about Keegan when we got there. But after they undressed him and got him all hooked up he looked so much better and was able to nurse and move around. I think the worst part of the whole experience was having to call and tell Terry that we weren’t home but that I was at the hospital with his baby boy. I thought that he was going to be mad at me but I was completely wrong he was the sweetest and just got there as soon as he could (he was gone snowmobiling) and held me and reassured me that I wasn’t a bad mom and that he loved me. I married the absolute best man in the world. We ended up being in the ER for maybe 3 hours and went home with the ok that Keegan was going to be just fine.

We saw a pediatrician and he told me that we had dodged a bullet. There is nothing that makes you feel like a bad parent more than having someone remind you not to leave your baby alone. I left there with a fire in my heart to be a better mom and just completely drained. I am so unbelievably grateful for Jill’s dog and for a Heavenly Father that loves me and let me keep my baby here with me! Families are forever and I will be forever grateful that mine is with me today! 

70 years together!

Saturday we were able to go to an open house for my grandparents to celebrate their 70^th wedding anniversary! These 2 are such a great example of working hard to make a marriage work and having fun! They are 89 and 90 years old and still going strong. They have 6 kids, 29 grandkids and 55 great grandkids (talk about a posterity!) They are strong and true in the Gospel and live life to the fullest. They are just simply amazing-we love you Grandpa and Grandma!

Just hangin' out

We’ve been having a ball at Grandma and Grandpa’s house! Making treats, hanging out and getting spoiled with lots of love! I feel like we (I) needed a couple weeks to recoup from the craziness of the holidays and the move so we've just been laying low and staying home. And going out with 2 kids is hard work people!!

I love this sequence of pictures! It went from good to bad pretty quickly-ok sure I’ll give baby brother a love, a kiss too ok fine and then yuck why the heck did you make him do that to me mom?! Ha! Love my boys!

Filerites!

Well it’s official we are Filerites now! Somehow we survived the move (thank you oh so much to everyone who helped out!) and are getting all settled in at my parents. Bryker is in heaven with all the attention from Grandpa and Grandma. I think the move was a little rough on him so now that things are settling down and we’re getting into a new rhythm things are getting better (he was becoming a little monster especially at night!). We’ve been able to enjoy lots of cousin time and are getting lots of practice with the concept of sharing-that one might take awhile :) Oh and the concept of no hitting, pushing, or kicking! Bryke has turned into a little meanie! Ter is a little worried that no one is going to want to play with him hopefully it's just a stage!

 My parents have been so great with us invading them and words can’t say how grateful we are to them for letting us move in for a bit!! We love you Mom and Dad! (Oh and Ter is really liking his internship-the long days were a little bit rough to get used to but he likes the people he works with and that he gets to play games all day :)

So long 2012!

I really think one of the greatest things about a new year is looking back at the last year at all the cherished memories that were made.  This is one of my favorite posts to write because I get to do just that.  And then that makes me so thankful for this blog! You always hear in church the importance of journaling and records and I am so incredibly grateful for that counsel! I just got to take a few minutes and watch Bryke grow up before my eyes, relive our amazing trip to Redfish, be reminded of the miracle of Keegan’s birth and all the other great times that 2012 brought us!

 The whole time looking back through the year I just kept thinking how unbelievably blessed that I am! I have been given a truly amazing life full of the greatest people I could ever ask for. My life is run by 3 of the best boys there ever were! I don’t know how I got so lucky to have Ter for my sweetie and to be the mama of Bryke and Keegan-it boggles my mind! 2012 was full to the brim of great times (and 3 months that were pretty tough while Ter was doing his internship in Burley). We went from a family of 3 to 4, hello little Keegster! We played in the mountains, took lots of trips home and made it through the last real semester of Grad school. Thanks for being so great 2012!

2013 is going to be a big year for us and I can’t wait to see how everything turns out and where we end up. Bring it on 2013!

These are my New Year Resolutions (wish me luck!):

1. be a better, more active mom

2. lose my baby weight and get in shape

3. have a better relationship with my HF read scriptures and pray more

4. buy a house

5. go on a date once a month

6. less time online

Here are our highlights of 2012: (Going through the pictures just made me realize all over again that we have such a great life and I am so thankful for my boys!)

1^st camping trip, internship, 1^st time bowling, quality time with the ducks, Redfish Challis trip, finding out Keegan was on the way, spending time in the mountains together, playing with Afa and Courtney (neighbors), going to the fair, Grandma’s 80^th birthday, baby Oaklee being born, KEEGAN WAS BORN!, Bryker was Bob the Builder for Halloween, we moved to Filer!

So incredibly blessed!

Goodbye Pocatello!

Ter finished his semester (seriously he is a Grad school wiz! I think he has had maybe 1 or 2 B’s through the whole program. Me and the boys are SO proud of him!) and that means that our time in Pocatello is done. It really does make me so sad to say that. We have made some amazing friendships and truly come to love this city. It is full of parks, so close to so many fun things and full of great things to do as a family-we really are going to miss the town and all the amazing people we met while living here.  We’re off to live with my parents in Filer while Ter does his last internship in Twin Falls and then it is on to graduation and life in the real world! Good bye for now Pocatello, thanks for being SO great to us! You will always hold a special place in our hearts!

And how could I forget our jungle apartment? I was such a baby when we first moved in about having to live in an apartment pulled right out of the 1970’s but that little place sure grew on us. I think I might actually miss our green carpet and lime green linoleum! We brought both our babies home to that little apartment and just had a ball living there. It really was bittersweet as we packed up the last box. I couldn’t hold back the tears as I was vacuuming. Each room in that apartment holds memories that are dear to my heart, Bryke’s first steps, Ter and Bryke playing basketball on the hoop Ter made on the back of the door, late night talks with my sweetie, early morning snuggle and feeding time with both my baby boys, sewing in my little corner, the list could go on and on.

I look back on our time in Pocatello and really my heart is so full. I know without a shadow of a doubt that Heavenly Father is mindful of me and my family. He lead us to a place that was so right for us in that time of our lives. And not just a town and school but an apartment complex that offered us countless blessings, true friendships being the greatest! So goodbye for now Pocatello, who knows maybe we'll be back someday!

Love my boys!

These 2 little people run my life and I wouldn't have it any other way-being their mama is the best! I love you my blue-eyed boys!

He'll watch Woody and Buzz anytime {anywhere}!